我以为

cause i thought that you'd be there, but i have the feeling that you won't , yet i still hope and expect you to be there. you asked me to expect, remember ;) so yeah i didn't regret expecting something , i took the risk :)

fear and doubt

i'm at my worst now , i'm trying to keep myself together , not broken down :) i fear so much that this will end right here and right now. i don't even know what is happening to you right now, i'm dying to hear the voice of yours , the voice so warm that can calm the raging storms.

i need you , my mind is producing quite hefty amounts of thoughts , stupid ones . what if you disappear, what if you're forced to stay there in 2011 , what if we won't be seeing each other anymore , what if you're found out , what if this is then end , what if i completely lose track of you , what if .. what if .. and what if .. D':

i don't want that to happen , i really don't. it would be like getting myself lost in amazon forest without basic survival needs. it would be like getting lost in an endless nightmare filled with doubts and fears )': it would be like losing everything . yes, everything . you impacted so much of my life that it would be like living with no air if you ain't here baby :(

so please , please , let me know what's happening

i can't afford losing you, i really can't.

dang .. (:

i just want you to know . no matter how moody i get . no matter how bad the situation gets . no matter how bad i treat you . no matter how ignorant i may be towards you . no matter what i said . i will not leave you (: . "this may sound a little bit cheesy but, i want you to know that i love you, and always will ♥♥"

loves, boyfriend ;)

i thought you'll pick up

you said you will

never mind never mind never mind never mind

i tell myself it's fine .

it'll get better :) so yeah . i'm fine . perfectly fine :D

i'm not gonna do anything anymore . (:

stupid me , *giggles